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Tuesday, June 20, 2006

Done!

I'm back after writing my last ever exam of my undergrad degree and I feel nothing but absolute bliss. Bliss combined with relief and and inexplicable joy. In short, at the moment I feel like I'm on top of the world!! In your face, world!! True my exam was not too bad, or I wouldn't have been as ecstatic (although I'm really hoping I don't fail or get a supp for Engg. Econs...there was a reason for me choosing to study engineering over commerce, ppl!), but anyhoos...

I was at the testosterone filled engineering labs till midnight yesterday and as I looked around at the pale and tired faces of my class-mates, I felt a sense of loss...To say that I would miss studying with my buddies would be a blatant lie, but I WILL MISS THEM...horribly! I'll miss cramming theories with them at the last minute, staying at the labs at unearthly hours and eating takeaway food, bitching about our lecturers, whinging about how difficult our units are, panicking and crying after a test. I took a long, hard look at my exam answer sheet before handing it over to my examiner today, and yeah...in my own way I'll miss all the ups and downs and mental chaos that ensues from studying at uni...

I guess today is a time of introspection for me...I am at the threshold of graduating and as much freedom and independence I feel at the moment, I will always miss the security of being at uni. A lot of people have been asking me if I'm excited about graduating, and to be honest, all I can say is I'm not sure...Sure I want to go out there and take on the world with my engineering skills and make it a better place to live in and all, but for me being at uni was fun. I had really really bad days when I would wish all would just end, but with the aid of family, friends and my beloved classmates (three cheers for collation/plagarism I say!) I got through all of it...I vaguely remember when I first came to uni...I was 17 then...naive, gullible, and utterly nice. Now at 21, I feel a sense of accomplishment...I think I am a better person now and I feel more complete. Some would say that I am bitchier, and more vocal and offensive now, but no, I think I like the new me. I think the company I've kept and the enviroment I've lived in has changed me...in so many ways...Besides a tentative degree, there are three important things I've gotten out of uni...

1) Faith...in God and in other people
2) Treasured friendships
3) The knowledge that nothing is REALLY important in life...everything is relative and no matter how important it may seem, all things are just passing...

This is a haphazard post and the contemplative side of me is just begging for me to sit and reflect and get in touch with my innermost emotions, but at the moment I can't be stuffed. I feel happy today and I would love to do something fun to celebrate...Damn you Leenz for having exams and you too PJ for being so damn far away!! Well, I think I'm just going to have to temporarily satisfy myself by going out to the lounge and watching telly...and maybe begin with Narnia...oh yeah, and then, and then...maybe I'll watch the World Cup matches. Sounds like a fun plan, huh?? Thats it for me...for today at least...

Bring on tomorrow, I say!

5 Comments:

Blogger pj said...

heehee.. time for u to discover youtube then! :P

its excellent btw, u can watch LOADS of anime. heehee...

:D i'm glad u're graduating!!!! :)

Sun Jun 25, 03:30:00 PM

 
Blogger Leenz said...

congrats!!! jst think, no more late nites at that damn lib with the vienna's and the tuna patties and the disgusting dim sims!
the world is ur oyster christabubble (and u get a new hair cut and colour too!!)

Mon Jun 26, 04:16:00 PM

 
Blogger ferrarista said...

PJ/Leenz: Yeah, I'm glad I'm graduating too (fingers crossed!), but I'm gonna miss doing the stuff that everyone else at uni/home will be doing!

I'm gonna be the odd one out now :(

*sigh* I wish I could feel more upbeat about this whole thing :(

Looking forward to my getting my hair dyed for the first time though...And Coldplay!! :) Bring it on!

Mon Jun 26, 08:30:00 PM

 
Blogger pj said...

well sounds like ur having a good time then. hehe.

TAKE PICTURES OF YOUR DYE JOB.

i wanna see before an' after.

and i wanna see pictures of coldplay!!! ooh wee!

and if u see gwyneth paltrow, tell her i said hi and that she should've stayed with Brad Pitt.

heehee. Cheerio babe! I'm glad u sound more yourself today!

You are only as good as you feel. ;)

Tue Jun 27, 09:41:00 AM

 
Blogger ferrarista said...

Thanks heaps PJ!! Yeah, I am feeling a little less gloomy today...was hoping to meet you online today, but my stupid MSN is playing up again...apparently the service is temporarily unavailable...Stupid thing! Thanks for the talk yesterday though...

Oh, oh, and yes, I finally got my hair dyed :) Woohoo!! My hair is no longer virgin...I got caramel blonde highlights...Looks almost the same colour unless you look really really closely, which is a pity...but yeah, I likes my new haircut very very much :)

Take care PJ and will catch up with you soon babe...

Arrivederci!

Tue Jun 27, 09:30:00 PM

 

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