Hello, my name is CQ and I need help...You see, I'm totally obsessed with Formula One and Ferrari...As I said before, I need help...

Wednesday, May 17, 2006

Family and Friends


After reading Leenz's latest post, namely "My Point of View" (I tried to link your blog Leenz, but couldn't figure it out properly!! Sorry!), I'm feeling a bit nostalgic and a bit blue and I really don't want to start working on my thesis again...so yes, taking all that into account and the fact that I just couldn't resist the urge to blog about my friends...I present... my latest post...

Friends...I don't know who you people out there consider as friends, or how important they are to you, but to me, this bunch of people mean the world. I suppose a disadvantage of being an only child is that I never had anyone to grow up with. Without choice, my friends became intertwined with family.

I separate people into groups- family, relatives, acquaintances, rivals, friends, enemies (they are important!), admirers and people who don't hold any special meaning to me. Of this entire lot, my extended family and friends mean the most to me. Ironically, its to these two groups of people that I cause the most pain and weirdly enough, these two groups are the ones who have hurt me the most.

Family...its a weird thing, that...You are stuck with these people when you are young and then then grow on you. I wouldn't trade my dysfunctional family for anything in the whole wide world...I just don't think I'd fit in anywhere else...besides that, well, despite all our stuff-ups, we do have our moments of endearment.

Friends...I'm not really sure if everyone makes "real" friends during their childhood only...or if the process lasts till we die. I'm still trying to discern that. I have very few friends, but I would do almost anything for them (Please ask me to jump off a cliff!! I don't wanna write this damn thesis already!!). I do try and keep in touch, but I am admit that I'm lazy and so that doesn't quite work out to plan usually. I'm quite good with birthdays...its one of those things that I remember every year, whether they do or not...I like my friends because they put up with me. Its a gift, I assure you! I think I take more than I give...in friendships...and in every other relationship. Anyhoos, since I'm just drifting...so I'm going to end this with a few shout-outs...actually, just people who I consider to be my "friends" and who hopefully will read this damn blog!!

1) Ed: I've known you since the 4th grade, and I really, really don't know how to thank you for always being there for me. Being a year older than you, I should probably be the one looking out for you, but anyhoos...thanks Ed...you are more of a sister than a friend to me...

2) PJ: I didn't think you and I would ever get past being just house-mates, and even now its a mystery to me how we got close. Probably coz you were one of the very few who knew exactly what my frame of mind was...don't really know many people who can pick up on my moods...But thank you for everything...cooking for me, taking care of me when I was sick (you wanted to burn me then, didn't you??!! I was so damn skeptical!!)...everything...

3) Leenz: I think the people at Coles have established that you are I are arch-enemies, what with YOU hurling insults at me and all =) But yeah, its been a real pleasure knowing you...A special thanks for encouraging me, cooking for me while you were sick and for just putting up with my neurotic self. In your blog, you say that "I have a group of friends that I know I will eventually lose contact with"...I think that may have been referring to people like myself, but I sure hope that we will stay friends. Despite our differing points of view, you've always been a good pal to me. Thanks!

4) Liz: Remember us cramming for our C.Sc lab exams in year 12, and although we were panicking ourselves shiteless at that time, those school memories are some of the best I have. I was quiet and demure in school and you helped get me out of that to a certain extent. Thanks for that...Oh and yes...good luck with your project dear. Hopefully we'll both get out of uni soon and finish these degrees unscathed.

5) Sowmya: Don't know what to say...you were good to me Sowmya...always...never made me feel out of place. Thanks!

6) Suad: You are married and all now, but remember the embarassing times when we used to be crazy about the Backstreet boys and how we used to hide our BOP magazines from your dad!!! Good times!!

7) A special shout out to all my uni peers without whom my attempt to finish this degree would be doomed...

And that people is it...In my 21 years, barring number 7, I have made 6 friendships that I consider very valuable and will make an attempt to sustain... *sigh* On a totally random note, I seriously feel like punching someone in the face...surely that isn't normal... Arrivederci!

Monday, May 15, 2006


Fernando won yesterday. I'd kind of expected that though. He wanted to win on his home soil SO damn badly. A lot of Spaniards were there to support him too...In fact, all the grandstands were a sea of blue and yellow, except for one patch of red...Pity the people who went decked out in Ferrari/Mclaren/any other team's gear...They must have gotten a few evil looks from the Renault supporters, I reckon...Anyhoos, coming to the race itself, Renault had a good package and from what I could see, Fernie made no mistakes. So as much as I'm going to hurt my pride by saying this...Fernie deserved yesterday's win.

Fisi looked a bit subdued on the podium yesterday. I think he knows that Renault is entirely centred around Alonso and making him World Champion again. I wonder if he'll be able to keep his seat at Renault next year...Even more so, I wonder if he wants to.

Michael...*sigh* what can I say? True, all the tifosi should be happy that he leap-frogged Fisi and hence gained a position in the race, but still...I think Michael's bloody perfectionism is rubbing off on a few of us. I was disappointed to see Michael in second...ok, not as disappointed as I would have been if he'd crashed out or whatever...but still...second is just not good enough...Michael's stern expression in the post-race conference expressed my very sentiments.

As for the Mclaren's...quiet race from them...JPM's car getting "beached"...and Kimi...well, his car just didn't seem to have the necessary pace...

All in all, a dominant weekend by Renault. Next...Monaco, the crown jewel in the F1 calendar. Come on Schumi!!! I have faith in you...just not your car...

Feel like jumping off a bridge...I'm so over writing this damn thesis already!!